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Everything posted by Nort
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You know, what's scarier than a goddess you can see, is a goddess you can't. Just checked the radar stations, and there's basically nothing - not a blip. I like knowing when I'm about to die. Even if it's just an estimate, knowledge keeps me calm - keeps me focused. ...but now when all the other stations have stopped responding, it's just me and the howling wind outside, and just this uncertain wait, that just stretches into darkness. All that work I put in, all those tracking charts, they don't mean anything anymore. Now the playing field has been leveled, and I'm just another rat in a cage, waiting to die. I had a good run, at least. I gave it my best. I'll be among the last ones to go.
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Few people encounter the goddess and lives, and so virtually nobody really knows the true meaning of fear. They romanticise what must lurk in the dark, in all sorts of ridiculous ways, to the point where think that it can't be that much worse than their sheltered lives. ...and so they stray from the flock, and get eaten. ...and when you try to explain to them what's out there, you're just met with disbelief. It's frustrating when you see your whole family willingly surrender themselves to the dark, cherishing the thought of falling prey. They see it as an end to suffering, and not the beginning.
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Scientists have now finally discovered my goddess hovering in the sky. They have measured her appetite to be one planet Earth per second. Apparently they previously missed her because she was too close to the Earth to spot, even though she's visible to the naked eye if you know where in the sky to look. They're talking about it on BBC News now.
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This will be my final meal of 17% poison. After this meal I am switching to a 100% poison free diet. From this point on, I am choosing life.
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I don't want to mention internet platforms or names or topics, but some people are really, really upset over things, while I'm not.
I've accepted that it's just not my place to "rage against the machine". We just live in a world, filled with billions of people, and sometimes we're punished for being born, and sometimes we live in a country where we just have to starve to death, and that's just life. What you can do about that, is basically to pick up a grain of sand in a desert, and throw it as far as you can with all your might, and if you're lucky, you'll just hurt somebody else's eye with it.
...and to some people I'm a bad guy simply for being this apathetic, and not wanting to devote my life to some cause for some imagined "justice" instead of just getting my own life in order. I just want to do my dishes and pay my bills, internet-politics-guys, and you want to spirit me away to rallies and protests, and want to trick me into being upset, and shame me if I'm not, over some theoretical ideals that won't ever apply to me in the first place.
I don't buy into this "justice" or "rights" thing, or this idea of humanity as some sort of happy family that we should be in support of. Can't I have "that right"? Can't I have the right to just pay my bills and take care of myself in peace? Yes, maybe some day the government will ship me off to some labour camp or prison, but that's just what these people are paid to do, and have always been paid to do, whether they actually do it, or just frivolously rape people when nobody's looking. All you're doing is moving the line about, trying to decide which people to send to the camps over what issue. There isn't some state of "absolute justice". All you're doing is bullying people.
You're so obsessed and upset over such nonsense, and it's not productive at all. The cops are not your friends, and they will never stand up for you.
Anyway, back to being productive.
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If you want to know what upsets me, though, it's bad mapping. I'm watching a video right now, where the brushwork just makes me want to punch a punching bag. I'm just seeing a mapper (whom I certainly won't name) abusing the brushwork, and the brushwork screaming out for mercy. It's just cruelty.
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Thanks, Nort, I enjoyed your little dissidence, on this forum of all places
Even if misdirected and passive-aggressive in its root, but it's the best kind of passive-aggressive, if such thing exists
Did you manage to confront the source of your discomfort and was it productive?
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Well, I've given up on correcting people in life. When he makes every wall consist of four layers of brushes, he's made a conscious choice for his reasons, and telling him that he has a huge lapse in his judgement, will likely just upset and insult him. Mapping is great in that no matter how horrible his maps will turn out, they won't influence the quality of mine, and we can all live in harmony, side-by-side, and be rated on our own merit.
One thing to remember, is that he has no doubt released his maps, while I haven't. ...which makes him infinitely better than me, in that regard.
I think that what's productive isn't to correct others, but to focus on one's own improvement.
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