Kano, there is one fact, that is often overlooked when you're in that dark place, and it's very difficult to see when you're there. That things
always get better over all. Sure, the world is heading down a darker road, I think Gene Rodenbury got it right for our period. However
opting out isn't a solution. I understand the idea of sweet oblivion, but light is far more sweet. Then there's the advances in gaming that
Hang in there, I have a disability as well, though not as difficult as yours. I tend to believe we're not put on earth with cement shoes in the
hope we'll drown, but rather learn to work around them.
If you get to that point, please, talk to someone, I really don't want to read of another who took their own life. There is nothing on this planet
that is sadder than that; even when they are absolute complete strangers. I tend to focus more on how people go out of their way to help
each other, and focus on the good, rather than the bad. That big dark spiral has no light in it, so it's far easier and more pleasant to focus
on the more positive side of life.
Hope that helps.