Personally I think about blowing my brains out from time to time. I'm not very interested in the direction that society is heading in. As I get older, the only things there are to "look forward" to, are higher prices and more of my freedoms being taken away every decade, not to mention natural medical problems that will crop up. I already have a severe vision loss, and it does seem to be deteriorating as I get older. The thing that many do not realize is that handicapped people are frequently preyed upon by society. For one example, if you're blind, it costs about $1000 for a program that reads the screen of the computer to you. Dealing with people taking advantage of you is worse than dealing with the impairment itself.
I knew a guy in high school who did lose all his vision and so shot himself in the face some years prior. He survived, but has a speech impediment now. He was a friendly guy. If I ever end up completely blind, I would not hesitate to do the same to myself. A few months ago I went to the local gun shop to check things out. They're pretty expensive here. I think the 357 was $700 and the shotgun was $450. But I learned that shotguns can be purchased much cheaper online. Using a 357 to do myself in would probably be less foolproof since the projectile is smaller and would likely miss vital parts of my head. Using a shotgun would be more difficult to aim, but would definitely get the job done, as well as making one hell of a mess for the assholes to clean up. On the walk home I started thinking about how I would afford it, given bills that must be paid. But then it hit me that I wouldn't actually need to worry about paying bills that month anyway, and I laughed.
Some people find satisfaction in starting a family. I have zero interest in doing that whatsoever. Another thing that brings people happiness are friends. When I was younger, I felt as though many people were my friends. But these days when I call or text them, they never ever answer or respond, even though they're all carrying around devices 24/7 that are constantly connected, so clearly they never were.
I think if I'm still here by 50, that will be the time to call it quits. I'm 34 now. Definitely don't want to live to 80 or 90, though. There is one good friend that I wouldn't want to disappoint, but unfortunately they're almost double my age and that means at some point I will probably have to cope with losing them to the natural causes of aging.